As I have been praying the
Cross Walk Prayer, lesson prayers and scriptures,
the Lord has been working with me and in me in
several ways: My ability to discern the "unspoken
question," the "real issue," or to see with other
eyes has increased in my interactions with others.
Receiving the prompting of the Holy Spirit for
scripture or for the right next question has
increased several fold. Patience, peace and calm in
difficult situations has increased also. I have seen
increased levels of cooperation in the lives of my
friends and those I have been ministering. I have an
increase in willingness to discuss without criticism
in some difficult communication issues. I have new
willingness to be patient with those who are less
mature in the Faith, struggling with or dealing with
strongholds ... . Most importantly, I see and
experience a greater love among the people to whom I
am ministering.
Praise God for His provision and answer to prayer.
I have been getting a huge amount
of healing ever since I started this course. This
week, God has been showing me over and over, how much of
a loving God he really is. For the past 3 years, my wife
and I were in a church, that was very biblical, and
doctrinally sound, but it leaned towards the very strict
side and it would make you feel that God was there,
ready to pounce on you if you messed up. The part of the
prayer of thanks for God's law, that states: "forgive me
for the times I blamed you for being such a harsh task
master" is one of the areas that I am recovering from.
In my time with God, He is continually ministering love
to me and showing and speaking to me that He just wants
to walk with me just like He did with Adam in the
garden. He is a righteous judge, but he is not sitting
there waiting for me to mess up, just so he can squash
me. Healing is sometimes instant and sometimes it takes
time, but through it all God is there just holding me,
loving me and bring healing and freedom to my life.
One thing I have noticed is that is
different is that I have heightened awareness
and sensitivity to what people are saying. At 62
I have some hearing loss. so I have learned that
I must pay attention when other people are
talking anyway. However, this week it was as if
my hearing had improved at least 20% or more. It
was far easier to hear what people were saying
and I always seemed to know intuitively what the
correct next question should be. I felt "tuned
into others" in a new and different, much more
sensitive way. Is it an increased sensitivity or
a heightened level of discernment???
I thank God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit, for
what they are doing not only in my life but
in the lives of those around me. May we all
continue to be blessed by new spiritual openness
and continuing repentance, forgiveness and
healing in Christ Jesus. Amen
Last week
when you read testimonies, I found it
interesting how God worked through one of
them. The testimony that you read about someone
at work, and how they were forming a bitter root
(I believe it was) at a person because they
always complained. Well God spoke through that
to me and showed me that I have a situation at
work also. I have a supervisor, who is so nice
to me, but he treats others not very nice at
all. I have come to resent him in some ways
because of how he treats people. God brought to
my attention that I occasionally talk about him
with a couple other people who feel the same as
I do. I took the situation to God and prayed the
maintenance prayer about it. I haven't been to
work since I have done that, but I trust that
God in His mercy, grace and goodness, has set me
free from that.
My mother
was severely depressed and didn't leave the
house except to work. Growing up I adopted
her personality and followed her in depression
and isolation. Seems I accepted the attitude
"this is me and all I will be." I have tried
many methods of healing but only "ministry" to
the inner self has made the big difference in my
healing.
I see the "surface system," "surfaces causes,"
"root system" and "causes" as our lesson pointed
out. I have asked God for forgiveness in my part
"ungodly inner vows," etc. and forgiving my
parents. This week, I joined a women's weight
loss bible study! This is a big step for me! It
is hard for me to be in a group let alone women
I do not even know. I thank God for the courage
to join and socialize with other people at this
level. I thank God for His unconditional love
and patience with me. I give God all the glory!
From Fruit to Root: I am
thankful for going thru restoration prayer ministry.
I learned all about going back to my "roots"-
ancestors, parents, family, childhood, early
adulthood. I found where a lot of my thinking and
the "why" I react to things and peopled was built on
past hurts and wounds. The results were strongholds,
inner vows and walls-that I didn't fully realize
were there or how powerful they were in running my
life. I learned how to confess my sins, forgive the
sins of my family, forgive myself and recognize
ungodly beliefs and how to replace them with godly
truth. I learned how to pray and renounce my sin and
break the power of it and the resulting curses by
the redemptive work of Christ on the Cross. I
learned (and am still learning) how to release my
hurts-faults-failures- with the help of the Holy
Spirit.
This restoration has open my spiritual eyes and
ears- it is teaching me discernment and
understanding in ministering to others. I empathize
with them. I am them! I have also learned that it is
possible to have God's calling-His anointing - and
still have flaws, weak areas and lessons to be
learned.
I am learning all too well the
idea of remorse vs. true repentance... I know
that if I allow myself to be repentant --I must
confess--with total honesty--thus exposing myself
and restitution always follows-and I'm not always
ready yet for that--I want "the check to clear the
bank"-so to speak. What I always realize -after the
fact - is that it is not a sin of "spending too much
money" or even the sin of "sneaking around" but the
sin of Disobedience--and not disobedience to another
human but disobedience to My Father Himself. Now
-given it to me directly-"disobey your Father"-I
would not hurt Him like that--but give it to me
indirectly-like Satan ALWAYS does- I may fall for
it-I hear whispers like "its your money-you work
hard everyday-you should be able to spend it the way
you like"- and if MY will-MY want -is strong
enough--and I forget to pray about it-(or don't want
to pray about it)- I make the wrong decision every
time----
I remember one time (recently) that I wanted a
printer - I needed a printer--I asked-I tried to
pray (I did hear a no but ignored it) I bought the
printer-remorsefully- a day or so later- I repented-
my Father (and another) told me to return it-a day
later -with the returned money still in my
packet--my tire on the car was ruined when I ran
over something in the road--because I had the money
back from the return of the printer-I could buy
another tire!!--MY Father spoke loudly to me--TRUST
ME WHEN I SAY NO-I am looking out for you-. THEN
--THEN not only was I remorseful but truly repentant
because I saw my TRUE sin--I didn't trust my
Father-I hurt Him with my disobedience. I believe
the difference between remorse and repentance is
VISION-when we see that we have hurt our Father-
that we disobeyed HIM with our lack of trust--then
it breaks our heart and we repent.
One thing that has
helped me in my walk with God is my daughter.
When she was born, I immediately fell in love
with her, and there was nothing that I wouldn't
do for her. All the time she is growing and
changing and going through things, God has
showed me many times that the way I feel is just
a small amount like he feels. For example, If I
call her on the phone to talk to her, and she is
busy on the computer or watching a movie, she
doesn't really give me her full attention and
it's hard to talk to her. God has showed me,
that is how he feels when we pray and don't give
Him our full attention when we are doing so. Or
the times we have to say no to something and it
hurts to do so, but we know that it is for the
better. God also has to do that. He wants to
give us everything we desire, but wont if it
will cause us harm, or hurt our relationship
with Him.
I had a lot of questions
about starting this school -- things like
money, health issues and a very old computer.
Two days after I found about the school a I
received a prophetic word saying that there were
answers for all my questions and that this was
going to be a year of activation into the more
of God. The next week I called my pastor and
told her about the school she went online and
looked everything over she told me to go for it.
She also ordered my first textbook. Every week
she prints my homework assignment. I have a big
God a wonderful and caring Father. Thank you
love and prayers
I had been
struggling with some reservations about
being a part of this class because I
felt as if I was doing this behind the
leaders backs even though I knew that this
was a leading from the Holy Spirit to do
this because I'm a licensed minister of the
Gospel and God is calling me into
Christ-likeness all the way and I am willing
to die to flesh so that this can be
accomplished. He has been preparing me
through crosswalk life website where I would
read and listen to the podcast. I would burn
them to CD and listen to them over and over
even when I was sleeping. This happens
whenever the Lord leads me to do something
that does not necessarily have to do with my
home church that takes me out of the area of
comfort.
I would get these feeling I didn't
understand where it all came from until the
next morning during my time with the Lord,
he began to bring up a lot of things that
were very much connected to this struggling
that I was feeling. I realize now that I had
dishonored my parents and even made
bitterroot judgments against them and my
siblings so now I was reaping what I was
sowing. I am saying the Cross Walk Prayer so
that I can be free in Jesus. Thank you for
your obedience. I pray that we will all be
free to speak out boldly and not be
intimidated the next conference call to ask
questions, share and give testimony. Amen
Shalom
Coming alive
after the class on Spiritual Rebellion!
After hearing this Elijah House School
teaching, receiving personal prayer and
reading the homework assignment the
following night, I said the prayer for
choosing life. By 10:00 a.m. on Wednesday, I
had solved the problem with one of the
financial statements I had been working on
for days. At that point, I felt like the fog
had lifted and a weight was off me. I was on
a “high” that I had not experienced in quite
some time.
On Saturday morning, I got out of bed at
7:30 a.m., which I have not done without
great prompting in many, many months. My
habit had become to sleep until 9:30 at the
earliest. Immediately after getting up, I
walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes. I
have been trying to get back into the habit
of working out for many months. I have been
suffering from chronic tiredness for over a
year now.
I had felt for several years, that there was
a disconnection in my brain. Coming up great
thoughts and plans to execute them has not
been my problem. The problem has been in the
follow through. Somehow, I could not get
myself motivated to accomplish my plans. I
feel that God has made all the connections
in my brain since I have repented of my
spiritual rebellion.
God has restored my energy and
self-discipline. I cannot adequately express
the joy that I feel in my heart at this
change in myself. God is also restoring the
Boldness that I have always felt in my
spirit, but have been unable to completely
express to others. I can see myself
accomplishing great things as God directs
them in me. There are still several things
to walk out and work out, but I have found
my map and am on my way!
I am finally coming alive in God! Thank you,
Elijah House School!
I would
highly recommend the Elijah House School
It has been very enjoyable. I only regret
that we have time limitations and that we
cannot spend even more time fully digesting
the information. (We have already expanded
the class from the original 2 1/2 hours to 3
1/2 hours.) "A fellow teacher"
This class
has made me realize the need for prayer
counseling.
Through the Elijah House School, Christians
around the world can be taught to minister
to other Christians. I had been to a secular
counselor and became more confused than I
was before I went. I could not only have
saved money, but could have had a closer
relationship with God. Now I know how to
trace from the "fruit to the root" and
knowing the root of the matter can start
real change in one's life.
New Power
through the Elijah House School
I learned that condemning judgments and
dishonoring of parents can cause the problem
to come back on you. Since I have learned
the Cross Walk prayer, I am praying it all
through the day and I am teaching it to my 3
children. We have already experienced real
change from so many things in the class. I
now say "I got the power!"
Thank
you, Carlotta, for your love and
friendship
It really means so much to me. One of
the areas I am trying to develop is
believing people really do care about
me. Oftentimes, I succumb to the belief
that I am a burden to others and that I
and my concerns don't matter to anyone.
Those are the times I withdraw and I
become isolated. But more and more I am
beginning to resist this tendency and I
reach out to friends like you who have
faithfully loved me and encouraged me in
all things. I have never received such
love and acceptance before.
Thank you, Cross Walk Life
Elijah
House School is a must for every
Christian Counselor!
I never cease to be amazed at the new
revelations that I find in John and
Paula Sandford's books and teachings.
They are surely the Father and Mother of
emotional healing. I look back and
wonder how I have made it this far in
life without these teachings. Now, I
define counseling as helping people to
apply the Word of God to their
individual situations so that they can
line up with God's wisdom and truth.
I was well practiced in many mental
health modalities, but have learned that
we were unintentionally leading our
clients astray. Now I know that no
matter how experienced and well-trained
the counselor, how well the client
understands their issues, how sincere
the effort to modify their behavior --
patterns are not broken by re-deciding!
Now that I understand the law of sowing
and reaping, I realize that we are bound
to reap what we sow, until we repent, no
matter how well we analyze and
understand the problem! We do reap what
we sow, more and later, no matter what
or who we believe in. How simple God's
way is. We can just repent of sowing
destructive patterns, judging others,
dishonoring others and blaming God for
the results. As we begin to sow good
seed we allow Him to live His
supernatural life through us!
I would
like to also - once again - thank
Center for Biblical Studies in
Tallahassee, Florida and Gulf Coast
School of Ministry in Destin, Florida,
for hosting our Elijah House Basic
Schools in the past -- 2000-2004.
Let us know if you would
like information about hosting an Elijah House School at
your ministry or church. One semester can be covered by
attending full-time for one week or by attending weekly
for 12 weeks.
Making ready a people and
preparing the way!
Carlotta Waldmann, Founder of Cross Walk Life
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