Says I am the non-person
of the family, calls me names, says my opinions and preferences are
not important.
self-hatred - Uses my voice to tell me that I hate myself, then
my body/soul/spirit connection reacts with infirmities, auto-immune
illnesses and diseases of unknown causes.
competition - Says I must always win and manipulate for
self-promotion. I cannot defer to others easily, as in Matthew 5,6,7.
self-pride - Causes me to lust for a position, a relationship
or material things to complete myself or to maximize my potential..
selfishness - Makes me hypersensitive to whether I am getting
my share (i.e. of the love,) when I want it and how I want it.
exalted "I" and "I will" - The Devil suggests that I can do it
independently, by myself, in my own strength, with my own talents,
gifts and resources (like Lucifer did in Ezekiel 28.)
rebellion - I reject God's choices for me: i.e. my IQ,
appearance, body, parents, race, birthplace, etc.
attention getting - I demand attention from people before they
even have a chance to offer their love or at least before they can
reject me. I am easy prey for counterfeit love.
excessive talkativeness - Drives me to dominate conversations
with my opinions, needs, feelings, knowledge or just chit chat.
insecurity - Sets me up to be easily offended, to over react,
to feel devalued and to take things personally.
fabricated self - We prematurely create a niche for ourselves
and tend to project ourselves as more qualified than we are.
unworthiness - We fear that we are unworthy of blessing
(based on our performance.)
self-deprecation - We torture ourselves by calling ourselves
names, cutting ourselves down (as humor,) minimize our strengths and
maximize our faults.
self-comparison - Causes me to measure myself negatively in
contrast to the progress, blessings, gifts, talents and
accomplishments of others.
self-assertion - I am not just asking for what I need; I demand
with pressure, control or manipulation.
self-deception - I rationalize that sinful reactions, beliefs
and behaviors are OK; I defend them when other try to tell me the
truth.
self-questioning - I constantly doubt
God's truth
about myself, my perceptions, my abilities and tend to believe
that I will choose unwisely.
self-indulgence - I am addicted to ineffective coping
mechanisms like overspending, binge eating, kleptomania, drug abuse or
therapy that "never seems to take effect!"
self-idolatry - I obsess about my agenda, my needs, my
successes and my glory instead of God's purposes and plans.
perfection - Says that I can only feel good about myself if my
performance meets the standards of others, my unreasonably high
standards or is perfect (and of course it is not.)
self-accusation - Refuses to acknowledge the progress or growth
in my life; identifies me with my past failures and projects my past
onto my future.
self-condemnation - "I am" a failure, inadequate, inferior,
unattractive, to blame and unlovable. I believe that I am shameful
because I am basically defective.
self-bitterness - I keep a record of my failures, withholding
forgiveness from myself, and resenting myself for being imperfect.
unforgiveness toward yourself - False humility tells me that it
is more holy not to forgive myself and that I should punish myself.
need for approval - I try to earn "unconditional love and
acceptance" (oxymoron) by meeting the supposed expectations of
others.
not necessary, not needed - I agree with devaluating
condescending lies and conclude that I not valuable and that my
contributions are not worthwhile.
self-doubt and unbelief - I disqualify myself, settle for less,
believe I am the most unlikely to be chosen and cannot believe that
God could love me.
self-denial - I tend to exclude myself, isolate myself and to
suffer vs. asking for what I need..
self-absorption - I obsess on analyzing myself, my interests,
my needs, figuring out my own way or ruminating about my issues.
self-abuse - I blame myself, drive myself with drugs or
unrealistic demands, deny basic needs, volunteer for martyrdom,
victimize myself, am addicted to self-destructive behaviors.
self-pity - I accept the identity of a victim, stuck in past,
who is not healed and I insist that I should be pitied rather than
believe that I can release my pain to Jesus to heal.
self-sabotage - I "shoot myself in the foot" because I am
afraid to receive promotion, compliments or great opportunities. I
disqualify myself when I am afraid of succeeding; I push love away for
fear of inevitable rejection.
self-annihilation or elimination - I have a plan to kill
myself, make suicidal gestures or actually attempt suicide.
