Testimony by Rev. Patricia Torok
I Was Healed of Dissociative
I was born into an abusive, dysfunctional and mentally
ill family. Physical, mental, verbal, emotional
and sexual abuse were all a part of my life by the time that
I was five. Genuine love was also a part which made it even
more confusing. Because of the trauma's I was unable to cope
with, I began to dissociate at the age of two. This led to a
disorder now known as DID (dissociative identity disorder)
formally called MPD (multiple personality disorder.)
In 1990 I was diagnosed with 100+
"personalities" or "alter-ego's." By then, I had
been hospitalized a dozen times for multiple personality
disorder and had tried to take my own life several times.
In 1987 I married my
husband Ed, who by the grace of God was able to keep me and
Unfortunately, there came a time when I could
not go a single day without switching, which made every
aspect of my life and my family's a living hell. There were
good times, but they fell short in comparison.
Now comes the exciting part! In Nov.1995 I was
channel surfing and came across Cornerstone Television.
Frankly, it was the title of the sermon that got my
attention. It was "get out of your mind and into the word"
and I said to my selves (lol) well I'm half there! Richard
Roberts was giving his testimony of the stress that almost
drove him to a nervous breakdown, had it not been for the
joy of the Lord that caused him to laugh instead! It was
very funny and true, how the presidency of Oral Roberts
University was passed down to him by his father, along with
a 40 million dollar debt!
As I was watching his testimony I
began to laugh. Then the program was over but I
couldn't stop laughing, everything was funny to me. I
laughed and laughed. I laughed for 3 days! Then on the 4th
day, I realized I hadn't switched in 4 days. This was not
the norm, but then again not much was. I then inquired of
one of my personalities, "P.T., what's up? It's quiet in
there!" That was my REVELATION moment, that I knew that I
was healed, when the very thought of being anybody but just
me was absurd! I couldn't even relate to it!
What I didn't realize
was that I had been drunk in the
Spirit for 4 days, while the Lord was completely
healing and restoring me to the person I am today. PRAISE
GOD! In the words of that old hymn Nothing but the blood,
"What can wash away my sin, nothing but the blood of Jesus.
What can make me WHOLE again, nothing but the blood of
Even now there is still debate, as to whether
MPD is a dissociative identity disorder as defined by
psychiatry or whether it is demonic, as is thought by many
churches and believers. Here are my thoughts on that.
Whether I was "healed" of a multiple personality disorder
brought on by years of abuse or "delivered" like many women
in the Bible, (Mary of Magdalene was delivered of 7 demons),
either way... ALL THE GLORY TO GOD!
God is able to heal me of dissociative identity disorder,
do a creative miracle, deliver me of demons or
all of the above
It has now been eleven
glorious years since my miraculous healing! It has not all
been easy, but it has been with the Lord by my side.
"In this world you will have
tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the
world” John 16:33
24, 2002 I was ordained Reverend
by seven pastors in India,
all of whom I have personally ministered with. God called me
to go to India “alone” in November of 2000 and many souls
for Christ is the fruit of that divine call. In March-April
2006 God called me to a 40 day ordained fast and many
miraculous things happened during that time. The Lord said
"Is this not the fast that I have chosen? to loose the bands
of wickedness, to undo the heavy burdens, and to let the
oppressed go free, and that ye break every yoke?" Isaiah
58:6 There was revival in my daughters house, my sister was
delivered and a dear friend was saved, healed and delivered,
also of DID. Praise God! "Not by might, nor by power, but by
my spirit says the Lord." Zach 4:6 Through that time of
prayer and fasting the Lord has called and equipped me as an
Evangelist with all the gifts necessary to fulfill that
call. Now I am stepping out to visit other churches using
the gift of Evangelism and all that that entails.
I am also a
and in 2001 I wrote and
recorded a song called Living Water that closely parallels
my life. Though I reckon I could be considered a modern day
Samaritan, my life is truly rich and full of joy
unspeakable. I was a broken vessel, but God has made me a
vessel for honor, sanctified and useful for the master;
prepared for every good work." 2nd Timothy 2:21
Now I have the opportunity to visit other churches
using the gifting of Evangelism proclaiming the good
news of Jesus Christ and His healing power.
I am also a Gospel singer and I have written and recorded a
song that closely parallels my life
called “Living Water." Click on the link to go
to my music page.
Listen to Pattidawn sing "Living
It is an honor to be used of the Lord to serve wherever
he calls. My life is rich and full beyond my
dreams and I will forever Praise the Lord in testimony, song
and service. Amen!
“Brothers, think of what you were when you were called.
Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were
influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the
foolish things of the world to confound the wise; God chose
the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose
the lowly things of this world and the despised things-and
the things that are not-to nullify the things that are, so
that no one may boast before him.” 1 Cor. 1:26-29
Rev. Pat Torok
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